God I hate this! =/

Well... as the title said... I hate where I am right now!

I don't mean location... I dont like my current location that much, i'd prefer to be down south in a little town called Yateley, but yea. My problem isnt to do with location! My problem is what the fuck im gonna do with my life within the next year or so! I've already said about uni, and how I dont wanna be here, but need to be blah blah blah, but new complications have arose! Problem 1. I don't love the course i'm doing, it's put me off Interior Architecture and Design in fact! But then, problem 2 shows up. I've been thinking that with my A-Level grades (CDDD) im not gonna be able to get a very good job if I do drop out of uni and go into work. How many people have a decent wage packet with my kind of grades? =/ I need this degree to be able to get good money! But I feel without it, i'll end up with a shit house, HUGE morgage and struggling to pay bills! =/

Ohh.... and I still havn't told my parents all this crap! Im such a wimp!

Oh well, lots of things coming up in Febuary, so hopefully that will take my mind of things! 1stly, weekend with friends, I'll miss them LOADS when they've all left again, but hey! Then football in Norwich, will be nice to see Reading play again, weekend at my cousins to maybe, and staying there is always a ball :), then there's also possibly a bursary coming in, so thats £250 hopefully :) New shoes and RFC shirt with Daws 2 on the back :D Then in march, more football, this time in Ipswich, and my cousin and her boyfriend said they'd some and visit at somepoint so that will be fun, and mum said she's visit me too at somepoint! So you know, look at the positives and what not, but its hard to do that when the negatives are SO FUCKING BIG! =/

All in all, im thankful that hardly anyone reads this cos then i'd have to talk to more people about it, and im struggling to even talk to the people that already know about it! =/