Decisions....

So right now I'm stuck in a rather huge pickle! If a company wanted to jar this pickle and sell it, they couldn't, it's to big! Darn big pickle!

Anyway, the pickle i'm in concernes me... and my place at univercity! In all honesty, I dont really wanna be here, i'd rather be at home, I just dont feel at home here, i've never settled in fully, and frankly, its just not for me! But the problem surfaces because I need to be here cos of the kinda job I want to do, if I want to go on and design buildings, then I need a uni degree! =/ I dont want to be here, but I need to be! Even though I dont actually enjoy it all that much, and it isn't 100% what I thought it would be, I still need to be here cos of the fecking job I want to do! Dont get me wrong though, the course is alright, after all, its what I need to be doing to go down the career path I want to travel down, but whats the point if I dont like anything else about being here? =/

What also makes me not want to be here is all the things I miss that I had at home, the great friends, my tv, gas oven, looking out my window to see gardens and not a plain white wall with several other windows in, wireless internet, the Wii, a nice cheap pub, friedns, more friends, and a nice healthy diet that didnt include having chicken goujons and chips 5 days a week! I have tried to kick the chicken habbit, so far I've had it twice in 8 days, but its the cheapes thing to buy, and its easy to cook, so I see myself returning to that soon! As for friends, people here just arnt my type, seems to me that there's either drunkard that only go out to get pissed, or people that stay in and watch films and have a chat. Noone is like me, and likes to be in the middle (drinking at home and watching films with friends). And my friends are what basically define me, without them, im not me!

Little winge over, time to get some sleep! ... maybe.